whirl wind

my life is changing...and fast. things are not how i planned them to be, and of course i'm still in prayer over how i want them to be. but i'm very grateful to my god who has taken care of our needs. the past few posts have been really down, and i'm not sure if writing just does that to me, but i'm really not like that in real life.

which brings me to this up beat post! my pastor last sunday had an interesting sermon. it was about being real. not a fake, "everythings alright kinda christian". but a bare all, get down and dirty, know who you are and own it kinda person. (those being my words not his) anyway, his point was, to find out who we really are. which requires some soul searching. his example was if your into pornography and you've prayed for years for the desire to go away and it hasn't, then maybe you should ask god to search you for the reasons you have those desires. i'm not sure if i totally agree with that. i'm aware of some crazy stuff out there in this spiritual world we live in. and you have to be very careful how you approach that stuff. but i also believe that if someone wise is trying to teach you something, i'd be a fool to not consider it. do you think it necessary to get down to the bottom of why we have problems with certain sin, or do you think that's asking for trouble? do you think it's possible to continue in prayer for god to release a hold the enemy has on you, without calling out demons?

after reading that, i guess there really isn't anything upbeat about...oh well. it was on my mind. as for me to answer those questions, i have no idea! but the idea does frighten me a bit. maybe next post i can be a bit more upbeat. and post some pics!